i know i am nothing… watch me drop something on this earth
and be more than a nothing and then watch me fade and wave goodbye…and then turn
around and turn the T.V. back on. i loved the lies, i loved the certainty of pain
and here i am again ….it’s far from a big deal..it’s almost nothing, but i can be so
over whelmed by the truth that i am real, and human, that i can handle the complex, misunderstood human abilities and i can be neutral, cold and indifferent but the simplest
of simple human emotions can drive me up the wall…….
friend, i am small.. smaller than i’d
like to be….so let me crawl….fit into the skin that hides beneath the surface and
then conquer the world as i really am, as i really can..
and for this,
i need to leave.
i need to breathe,
a vital chord in me.
shit scared, i glare into the eyes of the future,
for death is more susceptible to a weak soul.