hmmm

it’s so weird how saying the same thing to two different people can make you feel so differently even if their reactions were similar..

on revealing some personal information to one friend…i was just simply amused…there was a little chock…that was expected…..okay and this friend of mine i quite sensitive…so it’s even more expected…

now you know those good…real good friends you have …? when you tell one person something you automatically think it’s best for the other to know, because that’s just how it feels right? even though there are times when you need to make an exception…

well this was one of those kind of situations….and since i couldn’t get the two lovely people in the same place at the same time…i then had to find an appropriate time let the other know…..the reaction….she was les reactive that the other, which was expected….everything was quite normal…

but for some reason i felt so different….like i actually felt a bit guilty….i don’t regret telling this person what had to be told, but i just feel like some where in them a judgement was made….a truthful judgement and maybe this was not a good thing…

ever get that…? when some one does not have to say anything but you feel like they must have felt something that they just aren’t letting you know…

oh yeah, i’ve been told i’m delusional…i know i can be delusional…but that’s with people i barely know…i am so sensitive to vibes and subtle things that even if what the other person is feeling how i think they are feeling i assume it’s directed towards me…which, i’ve discovered, is not always the case..yes, yes…grow up…

but you know, sometimes, regardless of what the person really thinks… these assumptions can make you think in ways you never thought before…adopt a wider perspective on things…of course you shouldn’t get too paranoid about them…but they do deserve some attention i think…

hmm….

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