my evolution to ‘yes’

for the past couple of months i’ve been in this state of mind where i think “it’s not like i have anything better to do, and it’s not like my life can go anywhere at the moment…so sure…i’ll join you to mexico, or dubai, or to the toilet or to the grave…if you want company…i’m there..”..maybe i was slightly inspired by ‘Yes Man’…man, Jim Carey is purely ACE!!

people used to ask me to join them expecting me to say..”err…i’m not sure”…or “i think i’ll skip…you guys have a good time”…. university was on then…and being some one who cherishes her personal space, and alone time…i needed that break from people….but some times i regretted not getting my ass up and making a move….i would say that i had work to do…but i knew very well that i probably wouldn’t be doing any work in that time…

i guess apart from wanting my space…it was also that i wouldn’t have the guilty feeling of having enjoyed myself when i was supposed to be studying….but see, last summer, even when i was jobless, and lifeless…i still liked saying ‘no’…

but then ‘no’s turned into…’mmm..okay’…..then into “okay.”…to “sure”…and then to “yeah, yes”…sometimes i feel stupid though…i’ve made myself look like an absolutely jobless bum…which i am..but hey, i got things to do at home… actually a lot to do…so i’m never bored…but now i always think…”why not?”…why not head out and see what happens….

and see what happened, i did….and i regretted some of my outings..but there was always i got something out of it…i just needed to make sure i was around the right people…and” smash, boom, pow!” life says “how you like me now?!”… ok i heard bits of that line from  ‘know one loves me , neither do i’, by Them Crooked Vultures…and i can’t get it out of my head…

this is the optimistic attacking…always need to find the good in the shit….even if this summer was predominantly characterized by cow-dung on things that i needed and hoped for with all my heart….it’s also sent me a few rainbows when it came to things that i half-heartedly dived into….

let’s just leave it at this good note, shall we?..fuck yes!!

…swearing is a stress buster you know….it’s been psychologically proven.. socially it has limits of course ->> http://www.sixwise.com/Newsletters/2009/July/22/Is-Swearing-Good-for-You.htm

i don’t even swear a lot…ha! perhaps i don’t swear enough…no matter…this is a fun song…enjoy…

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