chai, coffee and i..

early morning, get out of bed, make some tea, pee, do whatever i need to or want to…shower…in an hour…out of the house…

wonder what was up with this morning though….it’s happened before…i’ve needed a doze…of my best friend, coffee….

i had a couple of people i used to look upto when i was younger….i still do…but rather differently from before…i never made any one my ‘idol’, or ‘role model’, mimicking their every action and thought…but i did observe them a lot, almost unconsciously and try and learn as much a i could from them…

but when you’re younger, some one you look up to…comes under the species ‘some-one-you-look-up-to’….you are not aware that these creatures are also human..or if they are human, they are not normal humans…they are of a higher level….

then time takes it’s toll…you grow up…and in all the observations you make some errors occur…either in how things turn out when you apply what you learnt from them into your life….or when their way of dealing with things start to produce outcomes you cannot agree with however hard you try…

you start thinking for yourself….and you start realizing that this species, is, in fact very human…very capable of making mistakes, hurting people and doing all those ‘evil’ things you wished, hoped or were too unable to see when they were stars in your eyes…

i think that part, that stage of realization comes as quite a shock…it’s like lifting up a ladies skirt to not find lady parts…reality….reality bites…and so what?….enjoy the sting…

but when you’re young…it feels more like life slapped you in the phase than a valuable lesson that does not necessarily have to lessen the value of this person you like up to…

gosh, i don’t know how many people i am in complete awe of…i wouldn’t bother counting…but it’s not the ‘complete package’ that i am normally awed by…a lot of times it’s the ribbon, or the wrapping, or the contents, or the placement of the contents…the bits and pieces that make each human…

and what can’t we learn from eachother? even the ones you would like to avoid will teach you something..and it’s worth it to give everyone a chance…

oh don’t get me wrong…there are some people, who i place in a box to be shipped out of my mind, so i don’t have to observe or in anyway appreciate anything about them…simply because i don’t want to..simply because they , for some reason or the other… devalued themselves in my eyes….

but i don’t think it’s right in my part…i think you must give the devil his/her due… you don’t have to become best buddies with them and share popcorn and your fries…but you can always give them a chance to show you some good…and even the bad…and give them the chance to unknowingly teach you something, even if it simply that ‘da’ means ‘yes’ in Romanian, or ‘la’ means ‘no’ in arabic…

by the end of this blog…i need to apply all i said….i seriously need to …

now let’s walk away from this…

coffee…doesn’t wake me up…but it makes me feel calm…makes me feel good…and it speaks to me…and says, ‘everything is fine….it’s all fiiine’…and sometimes, you just need to hear that…even if it’s through taste and smells or sights….

speaking of sights…winter is nearing in ..the sky is giving in…to pinks, purples, reds and playing some funky tune like… 

 

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