before this becomes another “just another day”.

i, so and so, cordially invite you to the opposite of the biggest, most fascinating adventure…

i’m going to travel…in a car…. i’m going to see a few hills….from a car….i’m going to climb to the top of a hill/mountain…in a car…and then we’re going to get out of the car….breathe in the different air, and then we’re going to come tumbling down like Jack and Jill…down the hill…

we’re not going to fetch a pale of water…we’re going to remind ourselves that there’s a world beyond the concrete jungle we live in…then we’ll return to the concrete jungle we live and ensure our lives go exactly as they did before…

nothing is going to change…

i’ll still be broke because some one else had loans to pay and my cash was available….

it’ll still be a joke how people fool themselves that they are ‘living the life’ when they have so many unsolved shit that’s been swept under the rug….

i’ve been up there before…and i know what that peak reminded me of…it reminded me of everything….every-single-fucking-thing…and it reminded me of the one step i think of taking, that could flip their worlds…

i’m pretty sure what it’ll remind me of everything…as usual…..but everything reminds me of everything…so why does that beautiful peak need to be a reminder of the everything that everything anyway reminds me of?…

and why do things have to be the same way each time?

this is not a routine…we don’t go there, always….instead of remembering today as ‘yeah that day’, in a very typical tone….why not make it memorable as “oooh yeaaaah man! that day!”

i’m thinking very creepy, suicidal thoughts…err….i’m going to work on that…maybe today on that peak, i’ll climb to the parts i wasn’t allowed to…and today on that peak i’ll think of life and beauty and the picture and the lights in front of me will comfort me and fill my soul instead of making me long for more..and i’ll say and do things in connection to that peak which will embed something good in our hearts…

i’m capable of being funny…in sort of a dark, sadistic way…maybe this time…i can keep things more light hearted…

for a change yeah? for a change…let me forget that this month was unnecessary…that these added burdens did not have to be part of our lives, that i didn’t choose or have a say over adding a scoop of shit onto our issues just because some one wanted feeling nostalgic…let’s apply the “is ism” theory to this as well…

what is, is…what’s done is done….today, let’s breathe…after today, let something kick, that brings in some change, more change…some good change…for a change…

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