in the face of a face

met some people i hadn’t met for a while, recently….

was shit nervous to go to that place….you know when you’re just done with a place…like university, but you have to return to collect something or the other? feels weird…..

i didn’t want to see most of the people…i had/have nothing against them….but i felt like i was ‘done’ with them too…

but i got there…and people actually didn’t recognize me…they’d look at me like i was a tree..

no i wasn’t disillusioned…these are people i at least had one conversation with but they couldn’t force out a single expression…not even a slightly disgusted one, on seeing me…

my moron friend couldn’t understand why , for me, it was a more positive than negative thing…but think about it…..you’re shit nervous to be in some place, mainly because of the people you’ll have to meet again…but when you get there…its like you’re a new person, and they either need you to reintorduce yourself or you can choose to invisibly pass by…

the latter was more appaealling to me….and i drifted on….and it felt fine, good, just right.

what bugged me , even though i was supposed to be, and am happy for a friend is that…he was fortunate enough to be doing all that i wanted to do…yeah, we shared similar/same plans….plans for our progress in the work field, as well as things we were passionate about….i got my job  after 3 interviews, but wasn’t able to do it….he kissed ass…got the job and will be doing it….

reminders…of unfulfilled dreams and desires can be utmost depressing…and especially when the reminder is in the form of some one doing exactly what you wanted to do….

but i guess that’s life right….

never give up? always stay true to yourself? keep hoping and striving and moving?

all cliches…but cliches are there for a reason….they make sense…they are applicable….they are not said because they are simply words of consolation….but they actually can aid you…and while you are dwelling in their consolling effect…you can act on them…and while you act on them… you give life time…life gives you time…and life happens…and you happen…

peace….hope to achieve it all some day.

beautiful new stuff from eluveitie…..well not that new…but i’m a bit slow to catch up =)…always…ahem..

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