so much of everything…

wow…haven’t blogged in a while…. in a very long time…not sure how long…but it’s been long….long enough to feel the blogger nerves that connect my brain and my fingers itch and make weird noises..

life’s changed so much…

it’s funny how for weeks and months things go typically the same…..they get dryer and dimmer day by day….the things you do out of randomness and sheer boredom are just ‘things’…nothing means nothing…then in a matter of days things change…..it takes simple a few minutes or maybe an hour or two to bring a new person or new people into your life…that add meaning to your life…

i don’t like the idea of relying on some one else’s presence in your life to make you want find some meaning it…but i suppose sometimes you need a little help from other beings to push you back into adding some value to your life….so you’re not completely relying on some one else to give meaning to your life but it’s like some else hands you a torch or a batteries to make your torch work again so that you can shine a light through your tunnel…and add some value to it…

people need people in some sense… our lives are pretty much bouncing off of each other’s in some sort of domino effect…

and with the entrance of a stranger who turned into some one all to familiar…and other strangers who turned into valuable people in my life…things have sped up….old friends have become closer…some people have been lost along the way….reminders have kicked in as to where i want to go in my life….there’s so much info to sort out….

and the new year…well i just think new years day is just another day but it’s hard to ignore the fact that it marks time…it’s ‘moving-forward-ness’….and it makes you think and rethink everything even more….

i throw new year’s resolutions out the window…but i still do have goals, long term and short term ones…plus i want to make life happen and live life as it happens…and so much more…regarding myself….and others…

i’m done…the fever/flu has got my head feeling heavy and all this thinking isn’t helping….but i guess the bright side to illness is that it can slow you down…maybe i needed to slow down and watch life in slow motion for a day or two….need to re-energise soon though…can’t bare to miss out on all there is to come even if ‘all-there-is-to-come’ is another couple of weeks or (who knows) months of being somebody’s bitch as a volunteer…or over dosing on shisha fumes….it’s all still something…

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