same old…same old….

another day of spraying tears like an open faucet…

and you’re sitting here wondering, ‘why can’t i laugh about stupid things that so-called mature people say?’

he’s right….there’s always more than one way to go about things….

so…use the other way…use it…and walk the new road….i guess we’re not always quick learners….sometimes it takes burn after burn after burn….after burn…to go like “oh that hurts”…in the mean time your skin has been fucked beyond recognition…. yeah…

anyhoo…. i’ve spoken about perspectives before….

and well there’s nothing , kind of disheartening, plus, enlightening, than realizing somewhere within you you’ve left a closed window for opinions and perspectives and views…and you’ve maybe taken a step backward or stayed stationary in the calculations you’ve had to make…..

and it’s shameful sometimes to look at yourself…but it’s also kind refreshing…..you can go like.. ‘oh….dude….yeah…..light bulb’…..

anyway …in this mind set…at some point i forgot that, well, people change…and it’s almost…well ok not almost, but just plain ridiculous to expect a limited change in some one you knew from grade 11….to now, when you’re all in your early 20’s…and more over it’s also naive to take hold of just a single idea regarding an opinion some one held of you…

i mean, it’s easy…to generalize on people’s opinions….i say i don’t like apples, you can assume i don’t like fruits….ok no thats too narrow….some one says i look weird in these pants…i assume that they think i generally don’t look good….yeah? yeah…something like that….of course this isn’t about pants or fruits….i got a little more depth than that…

some one, like years back made a judgement about me…and assume further that they also assumed that i was incapable of doing anything else, and i took a negative underlying meaning to their judgement….when it was something more like, one small window in their opinion….

anyway, it was good to know…and when that window opened, it’s been another window after another window…some light, some air, some new person walking by in the street…

all good…all good…all interesting…all new…

peace…

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