chuckle

rewind, rethink, rethink, re analyze,

super size,

your thoughts,

project them,

on one of your several layers of walls,

don’t flip the channel…before i continue this elsewhere….

just tap your knuckles and chuckle…

i’m the least bit amused by the failed plans and motives and the ups and downs that i ahve injected into this little life with out having really made a move….

god where and when did i learn to give up and give in?it’s one thing to be tolerant and adjusting….but it can only be a shame to be senile at 22..a benign giver upper….of course you wouldn’t think i am so…of course…why would you…..words are like the stamps that say ‘sealed’ ‘approved’ and ‘classified’… they validate actions….and sometimes they can be misleading…..they can breed the illusion of actions…they can be the stamp on an empty envelope…

you dig?

dig in…

it comes with fries and a coke…and a couple of handy jokes to keep your social smile upturned….

some of us, can’t blend in with the world when we feel like we’ve let ourselves down…there are some of us, who can splendidly blend in the mixture and be the veggie pattie, the burger bread thing, the mayo, lettuce and cheese…and onions too maybe…even if we have let ourselves down…

we’re on the same boat either way…and it probably digs us…pierces through us to hear our words but see no actions to back them up….

why are we stagnant…

maybe because we don’t allow ourselves to be human…maybe we don’t respect ourselves enough to take into consideration what and who we are and that we have limits but also stretchable boundaries…..because like muscles strengthens, we need to make little tears, let the bastards heal, then push it a tiny step forward…

maybe it’s all about a bit of self respect and love…for ourselves and the rest of the world…

i was going to take a stab at the religion i was born into and go like “well if you teach kids that they were born as sinners and doomed and have to spend their entire lives feeling guilty for the crimes they havent done and the crimes they will do…how the heck are people to value their human existences?”…but then i remembered those dreaded cathecism classes also said, that mr.god is within you, your body is the temple and blah blah blah….so even though those are two bits of contradictory information ‘as per the bible or what not’….they did teach a bit of self valueness…

of course i don’t think you need religion to tell you to respect life and yourself and the rest of the world…you jsut need to open your eyes, suck it up and go like ‘i’m here…so ima suck the marrow out of this bitch’…..but i just gave that example because such things like religion are so deeply engraved in our societies, communities and pedagogical systems..they do influence us in some way or the other…

 

at the end of it all…i think…life is life…you are here…we all are here…however this shit happened…but this shit hits the fan, and it doesnt stink so bad…you know why? well i don’t know…haha..ha…ahem…yeah it don’t stink because you got no choice….

oh right, yeah suicide is a choice….but it’s kind of a chicken choice…like have some balls…

i don’t have balls…

by the way, mam earth…that lunar eclipse was so planetorily (thats not a word?..okay) gansta….

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